Those situations when you have a good day, things go as you want them to go, you stick to the plan and feel good about it in your mind and body. Tomorrow seems so close and bright. And then, this moment comes when you understand you are just about to fuck it all up and part of your mind screams a silent scream, a desperate but futile attempt to save yourself from doom, and the other part goes “hmmmm doughnuts”. And you become this helpless bystander watching you fucking it up. Over and over again.
I am so tired.